love

love cannot be broken. Love is never forgotten. love is a patient, faithful, trustworthy tie between two people who, when they look in each other's eyes, can never leave one another.
love to a woman is knowing she has a protector...a man to give her all of his love. and in return she gives him herself and loves him unconditionally.
love to a man is knowing that he has a woman to protect...to love and cherish and keep to himself and never forget. To remain faithful to, and to trust.
love is dying...but there is still hope.

people confuse love with lust. sex with the meaning of love. when a man walks down the street and a woman longs to be with him, that is not love. that is a temporary attraction, soon to be replaced. when a man and a woman spend months to years together, find that they can't live without the other person...find that wherever they go, all they can think about is that person, find that person so unrelentingly drawn to you that you can't let them go, its love. Love is not built on sex. Love is not built on an action meant only to create children. Sex wasn't meant to be abused like it does now. Everyone says that having pre martial sex is not a big deal...that its not a really big sin...they have no idea how wrong they are.
I am proud to say I will never have pre marital. I find no use in giving myself away before marriage. Before knowing that both of us are commited to loving each other. It seems rather pointless and slutty to me. People can disagree with me all they want, they can say virginity is a lame and pointless thing to carry around, but sex wasnt meant to be used as a "fun activity." it was meant to be used between two people who love, honor, and care so much about one another that they are ready to create life together.

Love is ancient, powerful and merciless. Some call it a torment. Some call it a joyride...
My boyfriend...my wonderful man...is going for a long time...and all i can say is that i feel a pain stronger than anything i've ever felt. a throbbing, empty hole that constantly eats away at my mind, heart and soul. Now, if he was just a fling, just a "lust" why would i feel so hurt?
Why would my sanity be questioned? The answer is that it wouldn't. the answer is that it is love. sure i might find another love along the road, im not saying i know how to be commited yet, all i'm saying is, this is definitly love, and the fact that we're being forced apart, hurts like nothing ive ever felt.

I'm actually getting better. Slowly...

7 comments:

Anonymous said...

love is very different when viewed by a woman

Xira said...

different meaning inferior? different meaning strange? different meaning silly? different meaning insightful? what you mean? :)

Anonymous said...

well women are far more emotional creatures due to their plumbing i suspect.
inferior? no
strange? umm yeah to men
silly? no
insightful? to them
women put more into love i think.
women put more into all emotions
i am the least emotiuonal person u have ever had contact with but i believe that women and men are far seperated when love is the topic.
its not bad that women feel love deeper and stronger than men, it hurts them more when it goes bad, but it raises them higher when things go good
i choose to not ride a rollercoaster so i just dont do feel, i like it that way.
lets see if i can come up with an analogy for you.
ummmmmmmmm
love to you is like money to me
when it is coming and it is good then all is well in the universe
when it goes away or lessens then then we throwup, quiver, shake, wet ourselves, cry, have the squirts.
thats how i see it
old man j

Xira said...

it all depends. some people have one bad experience and build an opinion on it. some people have several bad ones and then a good one comes. some people never have a good one. I'm just one woman, and im not in any way speaking for all women, but all i'm saying is that love is something special and, no offense, but you dont seem to take love too seriously. it is a serious thing. its a huge part of life. its one of the biggest things in life, besides a career and relgion. and mabe politics...ehh...maybe not...
look, i wasn't trying to be sexist, just in case you thought i was. i was actually attempting to complement those of us who live for moral reasons.

Xira said...

besides, whats strange about thinking that love is a faithful promise? thats common sense, sweetie ^_^

Anonymous said...

sugar u couldnt offend me if u tried
i was just giving you my take on the thoughts of nearly every woman i have ever known, and every man. i didnt say anything was wrong with the way u thought i was just stating that i think that women think more llike you do as a whole and most men feel more like me. thats all
love is whatever you want it to be
i hope it always is a good thing for you, it seems to have dealt you tough blow but any gambler knows they will get another hand to play.........
js

Myk said...

I understand what you mean about pre-marital sex...

Some people are slutty and idiotic...

Almost whore-like in the way they act...

A different person every night..

From what you say I can see you have the sense never to become anything like that..

Even if I do disagree with sex being created to bring life..

But that's another post..

Until then... I hope you can find your way through this difficult time in your life.. and know that I'm here for you..