losing it...

Who is Lain? Perhaps just a gentle soul trying to make a difference...Perhaps a younger adult starting to understand things. A romantic. A "silly girl". A girl with fantasies. She remains day after day in her room, cooped up from the world, fighting back the urge to scream at the top of her lungs from the uncomfortable rapture of this anti-social prison she has trapped herself in.

Who is Lain? My alter ego perhaps...some might call her a nerd. A quiet girl. A girl who doesn't put out. I'll be willing to grant that i understand that Lain doens't want to fraternize unless forced to, but it's not her fault.

Who the hell is Lain? What does she stand for? Where'd she come from? She appeared on my porch. And you helped her? Obviously. Lain is me. She wasn't always...but i discovered her. That's asinine. You sound like a mental patient. Funny...it all sounds clear in my head. Is Lain angry? Why would Lain turn away after all that we've been through...

Who is Lain? Lain is my escape. I'm losing it, but she's here to help. I sweat a lot. And there are times that i can't breathe. I hit her once, on accident. She hit me back, i suppose, because we both ended up with a bruise on the same eye. I think I'm dying.
No you're not, silly.
Yes i am.

Lain is barely around anymore...I don't ever see her. I don't even exit my room anymore. Where'd she go anyway? She's been gone forever. No wait...a few days...i think.
My mother told me I'm a hopeless woman with no future. She asked me just then who Lain was, holding up a picture i had drawn. "That's Lain; Me." I said. She had freaked out and started calling a bunch of people. Then i searched the house for Lain again.

They told me they had taken Lain away and that she'd never bother me again. The doctors, I mean. Oh they were quite nice, but there was a strange, almost fake tone in thier voice.

"Who is Lain?" One asked me. I stared up, unanswering and could see Lain's face in the ceiling. Hadn't I already explained? I yelled at him and pushed him down. Lain was waving at me from outside the door. Oh my God! Lain was smiling! I was so angry i jumped off the table and ran at the door. Lain was gone... It was then one of the doctor's told me I had lost it.

Who was Lain again?