my love
my lover is leaving on saturday...me and him were connected over the internet and when he leaves, he wont have net anymore. meaning, we cant talk anymore.
he doesnt have my number because i fear my parents will discover him. he's a bit older than me you see.
he's leaving because his father left thier family with a huge debt, and now thier being evicted. My love, his sister and mother and his baby nephew. I cant believe it because theres nothing i can do. I can only sit back and watch them go. watch him leave. the one i love more than i ever thought i could. My heart hurts all the time. I probably wont post for a while, i need to pull myself together and find out what im going to do. Find out how im going to move on. I dont know what or how im even going to begin. He's my all. i love him so much and he loves me. now we're being seperated. Im so frustrated I could just scream forever. I'll never forget him and I know he won't forget me.
bye everyone. i'll be on as soon as i have my head on straight, whenever that is.
4 comments:
i did not kno you had a lover.
I have some insite here. Lovers are like most other things in life. They come and go and stay and leave and love and hate. they always leave memories, you can choose to remember the great mind blowing memories or the disagreements
it is up to you
js
well we never really fought. he was always there. i never talked about him much, because i felt he was so special to me that i didnt want to seem to be bragging. It's not that he was just another face to me either. we loved each other. deeply. we agreed on everything, and never really found it nessesary to fight. That's why it's hurting so bad. I mean, I've lost boyfriends before and its never felt like this...
Well, I hope you can get through this..
It's a horrible feeling, being powerless..
Unable to stop what seems inevitable..
Just remember..
I'm here, ready to listen..
When you've got your head straight, come back..
its different here
alot different
easier
good luck overing it
js
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