a new era

I'm starting a new idea. Dunno how or why, but i am.
Probably the word to use to describe it would be organization.
I've been very disoriented in the past week. School's almost over. Been REAL busy. My ********* year of high school is almost over. My life is starting to look different.
I feel aged. I feel so much older than my body protrays me as. When I sit with my friends, i always feel like I shouldn't be with them. It's like I get along better with adults. With people who have already lived through turmoil.
Like I have.
These people who complain about hardship...
that don't know shit...
I just smile at. I just nod and say, "i know." When in reality I just want to walk away laughing at them. A "B" on a test is not hardship. Not getting to go to prom isn't hardship.
But whatever it takes to make people be gracious for what they have works for me.
But as i was saying, I just can't relate.
"No, guys sorry. I think a B on a test is good. It's not excellent, but it's good."
"No, I'm sorry I think not getting to go to prom is a good thing. Especially when you would just end up drinking too much and killing someone." They would look at me and say those FAMOUS words,
"What do you know?"And i smile.
"A whole damn lot more than you do."
And it's true. They walk away laughing, but I know I've won.
I know it's true.